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MAY 9, 2023




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John 14:1-3

14 Let not your heart be troubled: ye believe in God, believe also in me.

In my Father’s house are many mansions: if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you.

And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again, and receive you unto myself; that where I am, there ye may be also.

I call this THE RETURN COVENANT, the promise from Jesus Christ, who also said that if it were not so, He would have told us. A double, a “verily, verily”. The question therefore is NOT IF, but WHEN? Most Christians, as they see the world descending into insanity are getting a bit nervous, as it seems signs come and go, and everyone is still here.

To those watching all of this, WW3 seems to be looming large as the elite global deep state want their GREAT RESET aka THE NEW WORLD ORDER AND THEY WANT IT SO BAD it is an insane obsession and WW3 means nothing but a means to that end. The Great Culling of humanity is likewise an obsession with the elite, so what if billions die in a world-wide nuclear war. The more that die the better they like it.

Some time ago a write a blog called EVERY WHICH WAY BUT LOOSE. I re-blog it here as it is now doubly important.

Every Which Way But Loose and Great Expectations…

Have you ever had a time when you really, really, really needed a friend, but there was none around? Someone to talk to, to hold on to? To help you through some dark hour? To help you through a maze of contradictory and hurtful things? That you are being torn up and turned every which way but loose? When you feel like you have lost a dear friend and everything is changing around you, but you don’t really know or understand why?

A time when you feel like if you go backwards, you should have gone ahead? That if you went right, you should have gone left. That if you went left you should have gone right? That if you went forward you should have gone in reverse? That no matter which way you turn, it is wrong. No matter what you do or do not do, it is wrong. No matter what, well, it won’t work out the way your great expectations thought it would? It is what it is, you say to yourself – can it ever be repaired? If trust and belief are broken can it ever be restored? The answer is no, it cannot, you may think, and therefore you say to yourself why even bother? They just don’t understand, they cannot understand, it is only their viewpoint they know and understand.

We call them “issues”. It comes from the dark side of the knowledge of good and evil. It is here we have our “expectations”. The great inner hidden heart, where the great “I AM” resides in total wicked secrecy veiled from view, unknown, the hidden controller.

Timelines and expectations. Oh, it doesn’t matter if what you said was true or not. “I will return” said the Lord. Great expectations. Timelines broken. “You promised”. “Yes”, He said, “I did, I promised you, and I will perform, but not to your expectations. Your great expectations have proven wrong over and over again. There is a method to all of this madness, you know. It is what it is, and it will all work out, be patient, be patient, don’t push so hard…”

“But,” I protested, “the timelines all pointed here…” The reply was blunt. “I promised, I will return. You got there before I did, but I will get there too. Do you believe me? Do you trust me? If you don’t, we have nothing left to discuss…”

Expectations. Great Expectations. Other’s expectations. Hurts where none were ever intended nor wanted, the last thing ever. ”Where is the promise? You promised…” Expectations are seldom met, even when everyone expected them to be…things happen, they say. Why do we have such great expectations for others when we ourselves fail in them as well?

“Yes, I did, and I will perform what I promised, but not to your expectations and not on your timeline. Don’t be hurt, don’t be angry, just be patient, I will return, I will perform as I promised. In my Father’s House are many mansions. I promised, and I will perform, but not to your timelines, not to your expectations. By the way, have you done as I commanded? If not, you might not want me to return just yet, because your fate could be then sealed forever…”

So depressions set in. Doubts. Trust? Maybe, maybe not. Expectations dashed. Who to blame? Let’s blame anyone and everyone. Strike out at anyone nearby especially one you love. “You did not meet my expectations. You are untrustworthy, a son or daughter of Satan himself…” And so it goes…” Ever been there? So easy to strike out at others close at hand. So easy to inflict pain. I wonder if any of this has to do with the fall of man way back when…? Maybe we do have a hidden Darth Vader inside…

So I laid down on the couch and drifted off to a place where I go when I have failed everyone around me because they had great expectations. Everyone. Oh, they say no, that is not true, but you know that it is. A Spirit thing. “All I ever wanted to do was to love you, but you would not…” Failed. Expectations. Other’s expectations. The victim becomes the perpetrator, the perpetrator becomes the victim. Hard to sort out, hard to understand these great expectations of a fallen humanity. Why is that, Lord?

So I drifted off to sleep…

I found myself walking up a hill in the snow. I saw lights on in a house I knew from my childhood days. The snow was soft, falling gently. I was going home. So I went inside but no one was there. I searched high and low for them. My mom, my dad, my brothers… I called out to them, but no one was home. No answers. No one would ever be home ever again. Ever. My heart fell. Great Expectations. I so wanted to see them again… I left walking in the snow that was falling heavier now. I felt utterly alone. My expectations dashed to the ground.

Timelines…It all went by so fast. I did not realize how the time had gone by. I’m 83 now, it all went by in a flash of time…“You said you would do it by such and so” the boss said. “It isn’t done, you have not met my expectations, such great expectations I had for you! Can I trust you or not?” The truthful answer, no. Never. Things got in the way. I meant to get it done, but I failed. “I am so disappointed in you…” GREAT were the EXPECTATIONS. Well, I should have, could have, would have…but I didn’t, so what else is new? What’s your point? There is nothing I can do about it now…

I saw this bird laying in the snow. It had a broken wing. I thought I could heal this bird, bring it back, show it the way to freedom and fly free. The bird spoke to me and said “My wing is broken, my spirit is broken, and I am sick and ready to die…” I said “No, you can heal your wing, you can heal your spirit, you can fly and be free once again, I will help you, I will show you…”

“Not so” said the bird. “Well”, I said, “with that attitude I guess you are right, with that hurt, I guess you are right, with that spirit you are right, you never will be healed. But I would love to try, but you are so negative, so negative, what’s the point? I could save you if you would let me…”

Sounded like Jesus calling humanity to enter in, but they would not.

“I am not yours to save” replied the bird. “Oh Jerusalem, oh, Jerusalem, if only…” rang in my ears. So hard to turn away. Great expectations. Great timelines, greater expectations. The Love of Christ. No one seems to understand it, so they totally misinterpret it. I guess it is not their fault, how could they? They’ve never seen it, they never been shown it. They only have fallen expectations, no matter how great they may appear.

Pressures from the right, left and all around. Perform. PERFORM!! Do it, get it done. NOW!! Corporate America!! DO IT, GET IT DONE, GET IT DONE NOW!! PERFORM. “You must meet our expectations for you. Your review is going badly, you failed. No raise this time. Sorry, you did not meet our timelines, you did not meet our great expectations…” They show you the door. “So sorry…” Not really, good riddance to bad rubbish they think inside. You did not meet their expectations…

So your last paycheck is handed you and you walk away. You failed. Every which way but loose. So you pick up the phone and ring a friend. NO ANSWER. I really needed a friend tonight. Someone who might possibly understand but could not because they also had great expectations about you as well. Failed again. So you put the phone down, sad, alone, so sad…time to play “Sad Songs”…

So alone now. So sad, too bad. Woe is me, if I did not have bad luck, I would have no luck at all. Thrown under the bus, the train, the steamroller and 25 18 wheelers. So I went into this bar in my dream. There was this old woman there sitting alone so I sat beside her. She turned and looked at me. She looked like one hundred miles of bad road. We talked. She had, she said, such great expectations in life. “I had a dream”, she said. “But it did not ever seem to go right for me. Things happened I did not ever see coming. Life is do strange. I am alone now. Are you alone?”

“Yes,” I replied. “We are all alone in the end of things. We are born alone, we live alone, we die alone, but then again, maybe not. “Well no, come to think of it, I have Jesus…”

She nodded. “All I ever wanted was to be loved and have a home…” Her voice trailed off, a tear ran down her withered cheek and fell to the counter. “I had such great expectations, now all I want is to just go home now, I am so tired…”

“There is one who can help you, He is not far off, He is inside your hidden heart. He is waiting for you, search for Him, He wants to marry you, to keep you safe, to hide you away from all of these failings. You have no idea how much He loves you, no idea at all, He does not care how many times you failed, how many bad things you may have done, and He has GREAT EXPECTATIONS FOR YOU…” I grabbed her hand and squeezed it, “but it is getting dark now, almost to dark to see…” I glanced at my watch, it was nearing midnight…

I left and went outside, and the snow was falling very heavy now. I began to think that even when we hit the low of our lows, and even when we feel so disappointed from our great expectations of others who totally failed us, that they too had great expectations, great dreams…

Maybe we would all be better off if we dropped off all of our so great expectations of others and simply acknowledge we are all liars, make promises we want to keep, and will not keep, and certainly not on the timelines and the great expectations of others. We all fail deadlines we cannot keep, make work projects we cannot do, and all because of unexpected or ever seen events that happen, and then when it fails, we say to those we had such great expectations for “I am so disappointed in you…”

Do you have great expectations? Have you put pressure on someone to perform? Are you a boss? Are you the big, really big, big boss of all bosses? Are you supportive or a big nag? A narcissistic idiot of some type? “YOU SAID…” Yes I did. So what? There’s notes being made in heaven about you, you know…you are a bad machine, a deplorable, worthless…So what else is new? What’s your point? Agree with your adversary quickly came to my mind…

The phone rings. “I am so sorry I cannot come over today. I know I promised, but something has come up…” Great were the expectations.  Then who are you to turn anyone every which way but loose with your great expectations?

And so it with the nations. They had such great expectations of all the others. Even made great promises and treaties all of that stuff. GREAT EXPECTATIONS. Especially for America. Such great expectations that failed. Promises broken. Lies after lies after lies. The nations got angry because well, promises not kept. Meddling in everyone’s affairs. Treason at home and lots of other reasons. The God heaven was watching all of this. Even the United Nations and their promises of a golden future. All lies, not possible with fallen humanity. Evil to the core in the hidden wicked heart. Evil this way comes, always as a bright promise…

One day, out of the blue, came the missiles, American cities vanished in a flash.

PAYBACK for failed expectations. It was then Jesus came back. He promised. But few were ready. Most will have their hopes for heaven totally dashed. They had such GREAT EXPECTATIONS. “You promised”, they screamed as He sent them away. “You promised!!”

He replied, “I told you to enter in at the strait gate and walk the narrow way. I had great expectations for you, but you said, “we will not”. You said, “We don’t have to.” But I commanded it of you, and you refused. That is why your great expectations have failed you.

So perhaps we ought to re-think about the WHEN of the Return and focus on THE FINDING OF JESUS CHRIST and His revealing Himself to the seeker, so WHEN He does return, we are both READY and WORTHY. In Him we turn all of our failings, all of our deplorable things into total success! WOW! Anyone can, anyone…

The snow is now waist deep. I struggle to get through it. It is getting too deep. I am getting tired now. Can’t move left or right, forward or reverse. I am in His Net. I want to go home now. Getting cold now. Getting sleepy. Tired. You have no idea…I had such great expectations for my life, but He went fishing, and I took His bait, for He had much greater expectations for me.

But like all fallen flesh, I failed Him, a traitor, a Benedict Arnold, a Judas. GRACE. DIVINE GRACE. LOVE, DIVINE LOVE, it overlooks it all, it destroys all – save yourself and place all of your GREAT EXPECTATIONS upon Jesus Christ, KING OF KINGS, LORD OF ALL LORDS. Come to Him. Don’t just believe, don’t just have faith, COME TO HIM and you will have the ultimate FULFILLMENT of all your GREAT EXPECTATIONS, and you will ESCAPE THIS EVIL FALLEN MATRIX and find LOVE, PEACE and ETERNAL LIFE. It is all up to you…

You can listen to all the fakes out there or you can obey Jesus and find the real truth as to why we all had such great expectations and each one came to naught…

John 3:19-20

19 And this is the condemnation, that light is come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil.
20 For every one that doeth evil hateth the light, neither cometh to the light, lest his deeds should be reproved.

Let me rephrase it:

And this is THE CONDEMNATION, that DIVINE LOVE is come into the world, but men loved THEIR SPIRITUAL WICKED DARKNESS rather than DIVINE LOVE, because their deeds were evil.

For everyone that does EVIL hates DIVINE LOVE, neither comes to DIVINE LOVE, LEST HIS DEEDS SHOULD BE REPROVED. (JUDGED). Pray you be found READY and WORTHY, having been JUDGED by the DIVINE LOVE OF GOD and accepted His White Robe to cover you…

It’s getting to dark to see now…it’s late, even on the Lord’s clock. Almost the midnight hour – not much time left for us here… Are you ready?

You can find Home – but the liars out there won’t show you the WAY OF JESUS CHRIST…