The Truth Is the Truth – Find It Before Your Die In Your Sins

The Truth Is the Truth – Find It Before Your Die In Your Sins

The Matrix LockdownYou Are In A Prison

A New Series From My Book

FINDING HOME“ – Part Twelve

As usual, I challenge anyone and everyone to prove all of this wrong. Your eternal destiny is at stake here even if you don’t believe it. WAKE UP!! Jesus says only a very few will even have interest. The low readership of these posts prove Jesus was 100% correct. Prophecy fulfilled.

The real truth cannot be found in the land of the living, just as the Bible says. Job 28:20-28 – HEED WHAT IT SAYS:

20 Whence then cometh wisdom? and where is the place of understanding?

21 Seeing it is hid from the eyes of all living, and kept close from the fowls of the air.

22 Destruction and death say, We have heard the fame thereof with our ears.

23 God understandeth the way thereof, and he knoweth the place thereof.

I doubt that many people realize what is actually being said here. The Creator says that all the works of mankind ARE VANITY. They are because we are FALLEN and we cannot change our nature. It is what it is and there is NOTHING we can do to alter it.

There is therefore no real wisdom or understanding on earth. Humanity is a flash in the pan, so to speak. Being FALLEN, and totally unaware of the real love type of God, we wander around through life never comprehending the real truth of our position before our creator.

Jesus Christ told us to pick up our cross and follow Him. This is not some form of self-denial. It is not giving up everything. The cross is an instrument of death, of dying. It is symbolic of one of the most paranormal concepts ever known – and if you will search the matter out, God Himself will bring you down to a most mysterious death within, to a place only a few know.

I am telling you that Hollywood could never dream up the way of the Lord. Jesus called the gate strait, and the way narrow. In the end, the vast majority of humanity would be lost, He said, because they could not leave the world behind walk this mysterious “way” and die a most mysterious death only to find REAL ETERNAL LIFE.

It is here, in this “death” within, that God reveals the real truth of humanities fall and ruin. It is here that the real truth of who and what we are is shown to us. It is here you fully understand why you are going to eternal ruin. It is here and here alone that God can deal with us, save us out of this ruin, and resurrect us to be a new creature via rebirth!

It is here that THE LIGHT OF TRUE LOVE beckons us from deep within our lost inner hidden man. It is here that the real issues of eternal life or death are decided.

It is here that few ever go while alive, and find it out only after their physical death, when the portal to the “other side” is opened, but it is too late to rectify their true position. They die lost. They die in ruin. They die with their sins still attached.

In this final transaction of agreeing with the Lord, is what is true biblical repentance. It is here, if we agree, that Jesus Christ steps forward and give us his robe of covering, which is in legal terms, an acquittal of all charges. The Bible calls it being given a WHITE STONE.

It is a spiritual resurrection but most of our nature remains called the “old man”.

It is simple, but yet so profound few want to contemplate it. Throughout all of the Bible there are admonitions to seek, ask, strive, knock and labor for the real truth, and that we are seek after wisdom and understanding with all our heart, mind, soul and strength. Luke 14:7-11

And he put forth a parable to those which were bidden, when he marked how they chose out the chief rooms; saying unto them.

When thou art bidden of any man to a wedding, sit not down in the highest room; lest a more honourable man than thou be bidden of him;

And he that bade thee and him come and say to thee, Give this man place; and thou begin with shame to take the lowest room.

10 But when thou art bidden, go and sit down in the lowest room; that when he that bade thee cometh, he may say unto thee, Friend, go up higher: then shalt thou have worship in the presence of them that sit at meat with thee.

11 For whosoever exalteth himself shall be abased; and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted.

The lowest room is found by entering in and walking the NARROW WAY. It is the way God brings the haughty and arrogant hearts down in preparation for the revelation of TRUTH. Conversion is the beginning. The distance between conversion and regeneration is a strait gate and a narrow way.

Each person born on Earth has been invited to the WEDDING. Your own wedding to the Lord. The invitation is there, but if you don’t show up, there are dire consequences.

After this “transaction” was over with Jesus, I went outside. Suddenly I felt a “cooling” come over me, from head to toe. Then came total and absolute JOY that one cannot describe. I found out later this was both the “refreshing” and “earnest” given to the born-again believer. The Bible says this “earnest” is a glimpse of your future in Christ at His Return.  

I then asked to be baptized and suddenly it began to rain, and I was soaked, but filled with joy. This also was right out of the Scripture!!

If we will, God will move as well. You will meet in the pit of this mysterious death, you will be brought down low, and when you meet Jesus Christ, you will be astounded. All of the answers to life’s problems questions, dilemmas will be answered. You will then know that the Bible is TRUE, and if heeded, ULTIMATE TRUTH will be yours.

You will be BRAND NEW. You will never be the same. You will be one of the FEW. You will know something the rest of humanity does not know. You will have discovered the most important secret in the Universe, and from that point on, you will know the real truth and will look upon the affairs of mankind in an entirely new light and understand what is happening all around you and why. You will understand why the Bible says our lives here, our achievements, all of it, is VANITY and means NOTHING in the end.

What I have told you is true. It matters not if you believe me or not, for you will after you die. I died. I met Jesus Christ the LIGHT OF THE WORLD. The CREATOR OF IT ALL.

He is the God of all Gods, the King of all Kings, the Creator of it all, who wandered the dusty roads of Judea behind enemy lines in an attempt to rescue those who had an ear to hear. Few do. He warned us over and over again that something was wrong with the human race.

He told us we were spiritually dead, spiritual prisoners, and walked in total darkness, blind to our real condition because of the fall. He said we were locked in a prison house, and He alone had the key to let us out.

Our minds are veiled to the actual and real truth and the reality of the SPIRIT. It is true, it is real; all too real, but well hidden in a secret place. But you can find it if you desire to. This is why both Old and New Testaments tell us to search the matter out:

Proverbs 1

20 Wisdom crieth without; she uttereth her voice in the streets:

21 She crieth in the chief place of concourse, in the openings of the gates: in the city she uttereth her words, saying,

22 How long, ye simple ones, will ye love simplicity? and the scorners delight in their scorning, and fools hate knowledge?

23 Turn you at my reproof: behold, I will pour out my spirit unto you, I will make known my words unto you.

24 Because I have called, and ye refused; I have stretched out my hand, and no man regarded;

25 But ye have set at nought all my counsel, and would none of my reproof:

26 I also will laugh at your calamity; I will mock when your fear cometh;

27 When your fear cometh as desolation, and your destruction cometh as a whirlwind; when distress and anguish cometh upon you.

28 Then shall they call upon me, but I will not answer; they shall seek me early, but they shall not find me:

29 For that they hated knowledge, and did not choose the fear of the Lord:

30 They would none of my counsel: they despised all my reproof.

31 Therefore shall they eat of the fruit of their own way, and be filled with their own devices.

So, there you have it. You have to decide if it be true or not. You have to decide if you want to find the TRUTH and THE LIGHT OF GOD’S LOVE.

It is up to you if you want to struggle for MEANING. If you will, you will find out the real meaning of life, who you are, and what this world is all about. It will lift you up and over all of the hubbub of modern civilization and you will see and understand the ALL OF IT. 

Many verses that the “experts” tell you are Second Advent versus are in reality Christ coming to the believer in the act of regeneration. This is because of the satanic blindness and utter denial of a literal, albeit spiritual meeting with Jesus Christ, that changes one forever and ever.

Revelation 22:16-18

16 I Jesus have sent mine angel to testify unto you these things in the churches. I am the root and the offspring of David, and the bright and morning star.

17 And the Spirit and the bride say, Come. And let him that heareth say, Come. And let him that is athirst come. And whosoever will, let him take the water of life freely.

18 For I testify unto every man that heareth the words of the prophecy of this book, If any man shall add unto these things, God shall add unto him the plagues that are written in this book:

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Best’s Intelligence Review Hour For 11-6-2020 – THE TWO HEADED SNAKE SCAM

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Trump, Biden, Revolution, Illuminati Plans, Babylon Down, Fraud On All Sides

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The New World Order marches on with its TWO HEADED SNAKE operation, and it has never mattered if you voted Republican or Democrat as your votes don’t matter to the ELITE who run all of this from behind the scenes. It has long been said by many leaders that some dark “power” behind the scenes is running everything by the power of their money. Deuteronomy 28 and Revelation 18 tells us the same thing, but because of apostasy and unbelief in the Bible, the American people are now headed for total slavery with lockdowns, Covid tracking, health tyranny and the Mark of the Beast system. The voting scam is a DIVERSION as the Global Deep State moves rapidly into the next phase under the guise of a second or third wave. A revolution is what the Illuminati have wanted in order to bring in full martial law, FEMA CAMPS and it may be that the voting fraud issue will be the instrument used  as calls are now coming out to FIGHT even if it goes HOT, and then it is over. God is bringing judgment to America along with a massive DELUSION and Babylon goes down into the dust of history. There is only one way out and the age of Grace is about over and more…

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TO LOVE OR NOT TO LOVE, THAT IS THE QUESTION

TO LOVE OR NOT TO LOVE, THAT IS THE QUESTION

The Matrix LockdownYou Are In A Prison

A New Series From My Book

FINDING HOME“ – Part Eleven

As usual, I challenge anyone and everyone to prove all of this wrong. Your eternal destiny is at stake here even if you don’t believe it. WAKE UP!!

But somehow man KNOWS something is wrong, hence all of our “religions”, an attempt to bring God down to our understanding. It is all vanity.

Then I knew that Jesus Christ was EXACTLY who He said He was. He was my redeemer, He was my ransom, and He paid the price we all have to pay by being murdered on the Cross. It all made perfect sense to me in an instant of time. It all came together in a flash.

The Bible is true, every word of it. And then the Lord said to me:

Will you love?”

This then was the question, to love as he does or not, to be or not to be. Now must people would say that you would agree instantly, and not hesitate. But that was not the case for me.

What is happening here is our little inner man of the inner heart that runs everything in secret. He does NOT want to be dethroned. We call him the Old man, in comparison to the new man of a resurrected heart.

Here then, before me was a decision I had to make like no other decision ever to be faced. I felt no fear, but I also innately knew that if I refused, it would never be offered again. i HAD COME TO THE LIGHT, MY DEEDS HAD BEEN REPROVED. WOULD I ACCEPT THE OFFER OR NOT?

I replied “Yes Sir!”

It was at this moment that I felt a 180 degree change as He came into me and we came into agreement.

I found out later that this choice is in reality true Biblical repentance that leads to rebirth. You must repent of your so-called loves and then open yourself up to HIS LOVE TYPE. It is a LOVE TYPE EXCHANGE. One type for another.

Remember that we said a leopard cannot change his spots. We likewise cannot change our nature, and therefore cannot change our “loves”. We cannot “clean up” ourselves by being good or dropping off bad things – not to say it is not a good idea to do so, but rather, those things have nothing to do with genuine REBIRTH.

It is here that we must REPENT or CHANGE OUR MINDS, and that can only occur when you know what to repent of. How can you know except the Lord show you?

This may sound odd, but what is happening here is a presentation of WHAT DIVINE LOVE IS. It is a REVELATION of the SPIRIT OF CHRIST!! It is shown to you so you can agree or not agree to “walk together”.

But how could anyone agree with the Creator unless they were SHOWN or had REVEALED what the problem really is?

Amos 3:3

Can two walk together, except they be agreed?

Isaiah 1:18

Come now, and let us reason together, saith the Lord: though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool.

I struggled for what seemed a long time, but finally I said, “Yes Sir!” and at that instant He came into me and my whole life turned 180 degrees as I said previously.

And unto the angel of the church of the Laodiceans write; These things saith the Amen, the faithful and true witness, the beginning of the creation of God;

15 I know thy works, that thou art neither cold nor hot: I would thou wert cold or hot.

16 So then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth.

17 Because thou sayest, I am rich, and increased with goods, and have need of nothing; and knowest not that thou art wretched, and miserable, and poor, and blind, and naked:

18 I counsel thee to buy of me gold tried in the fire, that thou mayest be rich; and white raiment, that thou mayest be clothed, and that the shame of thy nakedness do not appear; and anoint thine eyes with eyesalve, that thou mayest see.

19 As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten: be zealous therefore, and repent.

20 Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me.

21 To him that overcometh will I grant to sit with me in my throne, even as I also overcame, and am set down with my Father in his throne.

22 He that hath an ear, let him hear what the Spirit saith unto the churches.

I now KNEW FOR CERTAIN that modern Christian salvation concepts lead to eternal death and ruin, and I knew that the churches of all denominations were teaching something that was FALSE insofar as TRUE SALVATION was concerned. Their theology is in grave error, and they omit, deny, twist and distort the Bible to such a degree it is worthless and leads to ruin. Jesus meant exactly what He said when He commanded us to enter in at the strait gate and walk the narrow way unto life. He also meant it when He said FEW THERE BE THAT FIND IT. It not because they can’t, it is because they will not do it!

So I had found the LIGHT. The LIGHT OF DIVINE LOVE. It is the TRUE LIGHT, THE TRUE WAY, AND THE TRUE LIFE. It is the hidden mystery of God. It is the ULTIMATE TRUTH behind everything that was, is and will be. Anyone can find it, they just have to want to more than anything else in life, just as Jesus told us:

Matthew 6:32-34

32 (For after all these things do the Gentiles seek:) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.

33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.

34 Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.

Look up the word FIRST. It means above all other things. Few there be that will do that. It has nothing to do with religion. It has nothing to do with all of the so-called wisdom and knowledge of THIS WORLD.

The real truth cannot be found in the land of the living, just as the Bible says. Job 28:20-28 – HEED WHAT IT SAYS:

20 Whence then cometh wisdom? and where is the place of understanding?

21 Seeing it is hid from the eyes of all living, and kept close from the fowls of the air.

22 Destruction and death say, We have heard the fame thereof with our ears.

23 God understandeth the way thereof, and he knoweth the place thereof.

I doubt that many people realize what is actually being said here. The Creator says that all the works of mankind ARE VANITY. They are because we are FALLEN and we cannot change our nature. It is what it is and there is NOTHING we can do to alter it.

There is therefore no real wisdom or understanding on earth. Humanity is a flash in the pan, so to speak. Being FALLEN, and totally unaware of the real love type of god, we wander around through life never comprehending the real truth of our position before our creator.

When Jesus offers His Love to COVER YOU, and you accept the offer, you have then been RE-ADJUSTED, brought back into ALIGNMENT, and are now “ready” to be raptured. You are worthy, not because of yourself, but because Christ is worthy and He COVERS you.

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Best’s Intel Update For 11-4-2020 – Election Fraud, Lawlessness & Babylon Down

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Best’s Intel Update For 11-4-2020 – Election Fraud, Lawlessness & Babylon Down

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How is it that in five or more states where Trump was leading by a large margin that suddenly all voting stops, and then suddenly when it begins again after four or five houses, Biden takes the lead in these states. The communist insurgency now continues with breakneck speed, meanwhile Christians MOCK the strait gate and narrow way, while positive they are all going to heaven, ignoring all the warnings of the Bible. Prophecy is now coming true, as always with 100% accuracy. Israel and the world will soon enter Daniel’s 70th week. The United Nations is rapidly coming to power and soon blue helmets will be in America to police us. Earth changes abound while solar anomalies continue and so it goes until the rapture of the Bride and then people the world over will realize the ARK OF CHRIST is now gone, and only a flood of evil is left…

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THE REVELATION OF CHRIST

THE REVELATION OF CHRIST

The Matrix LockdownYou Are In A Prison

A New Series From My Book

FINDING HOME“ – Part Ten

As usual, I challenge anyone and everyone to prove all of this wrong. Your eternal destiny is at stake here even if you don’t believe it. WAKE UP!!

CHAPTER FIVE

The Revelation Of Christ

After going through all of this for about three years or so, one day I was sitting on my couch feeling really sorry for myself, and I picked up a little booklet sent to me by an evangelist that had the cover title, “A CALL TO LOVE”.

I opened it up and began to read, actually some Bible verses were in there that I read and heard a million times. Here it is:

1 Corinthians 13

Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, and have not charity, I am become as sounding brass, or a tinkling cymbal. And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries, and all knowledge; and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, and have not charity, I am nothing. And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, and have not charity, it profiteth me nothing. …

Now the word “charity” is a word meaning a form or type of love. But in reality, the word is not translated correctly. It is called “AGAPE” LOVE. That was a LOVE TYPE, of which there are many. This form of love was of course here A DIVINE FORM OF LOVE. The love of God, a type of love humanity is devoid of. It was lost at the fall.

I looked at that and suddenly it dawned upon me that I did not really love anyone at all. That I did not IN TRUTH love ANYONE, not my mom, my wife, my children, not anyone IN TRUTH.

It was a terrible revelation. Because we are a fallen race, we are self-serving, manipulative, always trying to get our own way, always wanting approval, always seeking love but not really giving it. We love ourselves way more than others, no matter how much we try to deny it.

That revelation was bad enough, but then something very super-natural or paranormal happened.

It was like I was in a theater and the curtain opened up so I could watch the movie. I later found out that the Creator was removing the veil that we all have so I could see into another dimension. I was looking through a GATEWAY. A portal, if you will.

The Good Book says it is the revelation of Christ to the believer. Here it is in Scripture:

John 14:21-25

21 He that hath my commandments, and keepeth them, he it is that loveth me: and he that loveth me shall be loved of my Father, and I will love him, and will manifest myself to him.

22 Judas saith unto him, not Iscariot, Lord, how is it that thou wilt manifest thyself unto us, and not unto the world?

23 Jesus answered and said unto him, If a man love me, he will keep my words: and my Father will love him, and we will come unto him, and make our abode with him.

24 He that loveth me not keepeth not my sayings: and the word which ye hear is not mine, but the Father’s which sent me.

25 These things have I spoken unto you, being yet present with you.

Matthew 11:27-28

27 All things are delivered unto me of my Father: and no man knoweth the Son, but the Father; neither knoweth any man the Father, save the Son, and he to whomsoever the Son will reveal him.

28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

What I was shown was astounding. It is beyond all words – totally beyond all human comprehension. I was looking into THE LOVE OF THE CREATOR. I was looking into His depth, height, width, and it is so vast, so unfathomable, so huge it defies all human thought or imagination.

This love is nothing like anything you or I have or feel. It is a totally different TYPE of love, far beyond all human loves.

The Bible says that God’s thoughts and ways are above our thoughts and ways. In other words, God is on an entirely different level that us sub-Neanderthals.

I am looking into this LOVE, which is of course looking into JESUS CHRIST HIMSELF. I was looking directly into his SPIRIT NATURE.

He then spoke to me, and I heard it very clearly. I cannot say if audible in the physical realm or just in spirit. He said to me:

“Stewart, do you agree that LOVE runs this Universe?”

After just seeing His LOVE for his entire creation and everything within it, of course the answer was “Yes.”

John 10

10 Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that entereth not by the door into the sheepfold, but climbeth up some other way, the same is a thief and a robber.

But he that entereth in by the door is the shepherd of the sheep.

To him the porter openeth; and the sheep hear his voice: and he calleth his own sheep by name, and leadeth them out.

And when he putteth forth his own sheep, he goeth before them, and the sheep follow him: for they know his voice.

And a stranger will they not follow, but will flee from him: for they know not the voice of strangers.

It is the love of God that upholds and runs everything there is. If He turned away, it would all vanish in an instant of time.

Humanity has no concept, no idea of the actual LOVE that God has for them. However, because of the fall, they are CUT OFF from Him and He is just a distant concept to most people, some unknown force out there. And few there be that will attempt to search Him out in the manner He Himself prescribed.

Proverbs 2

2 My son, if thou wilt receive my words, and hide my commandments with thee;

So that thou incline thine ear unto wisdom, and apply thine heart to understanding;

Yea, if thou criest after knowledge, and liftest up thy voice for understanding;

If thou seekest her as silver, and searchest for her as for hid treasures;

Then shalt thou understand the fear of the Lord, and find the knowledge of God.

For the Lord giveth wisdom: out of his mouth cometh knowledge and understanding.

He layeth up sound wisdom for the righteous: he is a buckler to them that walk uprightly.

When the Lord asked that question, does

“Love runs this Universe?” – That was the answer I had been looking and searching for. I wanted to know the actual and real truth behind the Universe and who made it. I now knew the answer.

“Stewart, have you ever loved?”

That was simple, for when you see His unfathomable LOVE TYPE, the answer for any human being on this Earth is a resounding “NO!” No one born into the human family can even come close to the LOVE OF GOD.

This was then THE JUDGMENT phase of real authentic salvation. I was being judged, and I was found guilty, because we all fall short of HIS LOVE TYPE. We lost it at the fall. We have no concept of HIS LOVE TYPE because it is no longer a part of our make-up. This why the Bible calls God a MYSTERY. It is beyond our human comprehension and so it must be REVEALED TO US BY HIM.

We do have fallen human loves, but they a corrupted hideous form of God’s love – but everyone knows that LOVE is better than HATE, and that LOVE MAKES A PERSON THRIVE and HATE DESTROYS.

The fallen love types that we have are a dark shadow of the love of God. They are so far below Him.

This was the judgement, and the judgement is based upon the perfect love of God. No one can come close. We are therefore doomed to ruin and loss. It is that simple. I knew then WHY I was going to hell. There was no question whatever.

I was a lost “sinner” and headed to ruin. Hell is a very real place where fallen spirits go. I remember a movie called “Ghost” and the portrayal of these spirits taking people “down” is very real and very accurate.

Of course, all of this is hidden from humanity, and they have no idea of their condition before their Creator. We all sail through life with our religions, philosophies, isms and whatever, hoping against hope that in the end, all will be well.

But it won’t be, and here is why:

Mankind really is fallen, and really is lost, and unless one searches it out, one will never know otherwise until death. Then it is too late to do anything about it.

The judgment bar is the LOVE TYPE OF GOD. We are all going to be judged against HIS DIVINE AGAPE, the love humanity had before the fall. This is the MYSTERY OF GOD, and it is also the MYSTERY OF “GODLINESS”. It is all folded into one thing, DIVIE AGAPE LOVE.

Enter then the “rescue mission” of Jesus Christ who came behind enemy lines to WARN US of what was really going on. Because we are fallen, and very bitter deep within at our fallen state, we mock Him, we mock the message. We do not want to know or understand that we really are a fallen creature, it is an insult to our haughty and arrogant hearts.  

So that warning from Jesus that we fallen, dead in our trespasses and sins, a prisoner that walks in total spiritual darkness falls upon deaf ears, because we cannot fathom such a thing, so we deny it, refuse to face it, and make up all of these concepts to deny it.

But somehow man KNOWS something is wrong, hence all of our “religions”, an attempt to bring God down to our understanding. It is all vanity.

Then I knew that Jesus Christ was EXACTLY who He said He was. He was my redeemer, He was my ransom, and He paid the price we all have to pay by being murdered on the Cross. It all made perfect sense to me in an instant of time. It all came together in a flash.

The next part of this conversation was brief but deadly. To LIVE or to DIE, that was the question!

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SEARCHING, SEARCHING, THEN COMES JUDGMENT

SEARCHING, SEARCHING, THEN COMES JUDGMENT

The Matrix LockdownYou Are In A Prison

A New Series From My Book

FINDING HOME“ – Part Nine

As usual, I challenge anyone and everyone to prove all of this wrong. Your eternal destiny is at stake here even if you don’t believe it. WAKE UP!!

The religionist leaders of today lay such a heavy yoke upon their followers, telling that that if they perform this ritual, or keep this or that law, or pray thusly, or pray the Rosary, or beat themselves daily, or whatever else they can put upon them, that they will be saved and go to heaven. IT IS ALL A BALD-FACED LIE.

You can perform all rituals you want, you can keep all the laws you want, you can become so “spiritually clean” that people marvel at you, but in the end, you die and go to bad place. Why? Because all of the above does nothing to change your inner nature.  There is only one thing that does –

“you must be born from above”, an act of God Himself.

Do you see? The inner nature is what it is, and only God himself can change it! There is only one way to make that happen – and almost all of humanity mocks it and refuses to do it.

I then began to look for the words Redemption, Redeemer, to see if a redemption was in the works so to speak.

As I searched, a found a number of references to mankind needing to be redeemed by paying a ransom, and that ransom had to be paid by one innocent of the charge, that is, by one whose nature allowed such a transaction.

Mark 10:45

For even the Son of man came not to be ministered unto, but to minister, and to give his life a ransom for many.

Isaiah 44:24

Thus saith the Lord, thy redeemer, and he that formed thee from the womb, I am the Lord that maketh all things; that stretcheth forth the heavens alone; that spreadeth abroad the earth by myself;

Within the Bible there is found a concept called “kinsman-redeemer law”. It allowed a family member to pay a price to redeem one of their family that had sold themselves into a form of voluntary slavery. The redeemer had to pay a “ransom” to the slave owner and thus the slave was “released” and made free.

Another item I found was the constant use of the word JUDGMENT. Because of the fall, it said, mankind became an enemy of God, and as such, would have to undergo a “judgment”, not unlike going to court to face the music of your wrongdoing.

Lets’ take a look at a verse I used before:

John 16:7-16


“Nevertheless I tell you the truth; it is expedient for you that I go away: for if I go not away, the Comforter will not come unto you; but if I depart, I will send him unto you. [8] And when he is come, he will reprove the world of sin, and of righteousness, and of judgment:..”

Now the word for JUDGMENT is a very severe word, for it means to be CONVICTED or REPROVED UNTO ETERNAL RUIN. I suggest everyone who doubts that to look it up for themselves.

So now I had my basics, and now I zeroed in on the Bible because its message appeared to match the actual observable facts of life, not only ourselves and out “troubles” but humanity as a whole.

Our inner SPIRIT nature was the problem, and someone outside of humanity had to change it back, reset our spirit, as it were. Redemption was a RESET, an AJUSTMENT, an ALIGNMENT back – a spiritual reset.

So now the real search began. Day after day, night after night, week after week, month after month, and finally even several years drifted by.

Something very strange and odd was beginning to happen to me.  As I searched deeper and deeper, putting concept upon concept, precept upon precept, here a little and there a little, ever building this puzzle piece by piece, I began to die.

I don’t know how to explain it, but I began to feel that I was dying inside. Not in the physical sense at all, but rather some odd feeling that I was dying to the world, to my loved ones, to everything around me.

I came to the point of knowing I was totally dead inside. Oh, I was alive, I could function, but I knew that I was dead. No words to describe it to you, it was just a total deadness.

The search went on, the deadness of death inside grew to the point that I also knew somehow that I was going to hell.

Hell was real, not a belief, not some mental thing, but so much deeper, and I began to realize that hell was in fact, a very real and nasty place, and I was headed there, but I did not know why at all. This is not mental knowledge, this is far, far deeper, a conviction of the SPIRIT.

I was not some criminal. I had not murdered, raped or hurt anyone. I had never been arrested, never even had a speeding ticket. So why would I be going there, going down and not up? This was the trap most of humanity falls into – if they are basically “good” God will approve of them. NOT SO.

You see, this is what most of us think. If we are good, we will be ACCEPTED by the Lord. Not so, not so at all. It had nothing to do with it.

I did remember that the HOLY SPIRIT was sent to convict one of judgment. Or that judgment was unto eternal ruin, eternal loss. Now it was real, more real than our physical life here. So real, so unshakable. I lived with that for many a month.

Because most people never bother to search the matter out as the Bible commands, they have no idea where they are actually going when they die. They are the blind leading the blind, and they all fall into the ditch of ruin.

Matthew 15:13-14

13 But he answered and said, Every plant, which my heavenly Father hath not planted, shall be rooted up.

14 Let them alone: they be blind leaders of the blind. And if the blind lead the blind, both shall fall into the ditch.

Because I had searched it out, I KNEW I WAS HEADED FOR A VERY REAL HELL and there was nothing I could do about it.

It was during this horrific inner suffering time that I began in earnest to call upon the name of Jesus Christ and asked Him into my heart millions of times, but nothing happened. The winds of the Spirit were silent. They just blew in my face, mocking me.

There was no salvation. There was nothing but eternal hell. I was lost, dead to the world, dead to God, dead to everything. Dead is dead, I thought. No hope here, and yet I somehow knew I could NOT turn back, could not quit, I had to continue. So, I did.

The Good Book says that the Lord will take you by a way you know not, a WAY no one in Hollywood could even dream up!! In fact, the early Christians were known as the “people of the way”!!

During this time of inner horror and conflict, I began to realize I was in some sort of SPIRITUAL WARFARE, but I was now not a part of it, I was a bystander, watching two forces fight in out.

This war was between Jesus Christ and Satan, who owned me because I was born into a fallen race and Satan owns us in a very real and legal sense of the word.

It was like Canada and Mexico were in a gigantic war and that I was in America, watching the missiles flying overhead. It is very hard to describe.

I later found out that this was Jesus Christ fighting over my soul and spirit with Satan, my legal owner. Christ was in fact binding the “strong man” that inner man who sits within what the Bible calls our inner hidden man of the heart. It is here that the affairs of life and run.

This is our individual Holy Place, occupied by a little apostate antichrist spirit. It is here that the real issues of life are found.

It reminds me of the movie “Men In Black” where there was a little alien inside the mind of a Robot running it. We are like that, we have an inner little man running us, which is why it so hard to break a habit without a major fight. The inner man likes your habit and does not want to give it up. He sits upon a throne deep within.

The Israelites were told to build a temple as they wandered in the wilderness, much like man, who wanders in the wilderness of his lost and fallen state with no direction home. He is adrift in an ocean of conflicting concepts, forever searching, forever asking for what he knows not.

So, there I was, dead and pleading for help and answers, but nothing came.

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