SEARCHING, SEARCHING, THEN COMES JUDGMENT
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“FINDING HOME“ – Part Nine
As usual, I challenge anyone and everyone to prove all of this wrong. Your eternal destiny is at stake here even if you don’t believe it. WAKE UP!!
The religionist leaders of today lay such a heavy yoke upon their followers, telling that that if they perform this ritual, or keep this or that law, or pray thusly, or pray the Rosary, or beat themselves daily, or whatever else they can put upon them, that they will be saved and go to heaven. IT IS ALL A BALD-FACED LIE.
You can perform all rituals you want, you can keep all the laws you want, you can become so “spiritually clean” that people marvel at you, but in the end, you die and go to bad place. Why? Because all of the above does nothing to change your inner nature. There is only one thing that does –
“you must be born from above”, an act of God Himself.
Do you see? The inner nature is what it is, and only God himself can change it! There is only one way to make that happen – and almost all of humanity mocks it and refuses to do it.
I then began to look for the words Redemption, Redeemer, to see if a redemption was in the works so to speak.
As I searched, a found a number of references to mankind needing to be redeemed by paying a ransom, and that ransom had to be paid by one innocent of the charge, that is, by one whose nature allowed such a transaction.
For even the Son of man came not to be ministered unto, but to minister, and to give his life a ransom for many.
Thus saith the Lord, thy redeemer, and he that formed thee from the womb, I am the Lord that maketh all things; that stretcheth forth the heavens alone; that spreadeth abroad the earth by myself;
Within the Bible there is found a concept called “kinsman-redeemer law”. It allowed a family member to pay a price to redeem one of their family that had sold themselves into a form of voluntary slavery. The redeemer had to pay a “ransom” to the slave owner and thus the slave was “released” and made free.
Another item I found was the constant use of the word JUDGMENT. Because of the fall, it said, mankind became an enemy of God, and as such, would have to undergo a “judgment”, not unlike going to court to face the music of your wrongdoing.
Lets’ take a look at a verse I used before:
“Nevertheless I tell you the truth; it is expedient for you that I go away: for if I go not away, the Comforter will not come unto you; but if I depart, I will send him unto you.  And when he is come, he will reprove the world of sin, and of righteousness, and of judgment:..”
Now the word for JUDGMENT is a very severe word, for it means to be CONVICTED or REPROVED UNTO ETERNAL RUIN. I suggest everyone who doubts that to look it up for themselves.
So now I had my basics, and now I zeroed in on the Bible because its message appeared to match the actual observable facts of life, not only ourselves and out “troubles” but humanity as a whole.
Our inner SPIRIT nature was the problem, and someone outside of humanity had to change it back, reset our spirit, as it were. Redemption was a RESET, an AJUSTMENT, an ALIGNMENT back – a spiritual reset.
So now the real search began. Day after day, night after night, week after week, month after month, and finally even several years drifted by.
Something very strange and odd was beginning to happen to me. As I searched deeper and deeper, putting concept upon concept, precept upon precept, here a little and there a little, ever building this puzzle piece by piece, I began to die.
I don’t know how to explain it, but I began to feel that I was dying inside. Not in the physical sense at all, but rather some odd feeling that I was dying to the world, to my loved ones, to everything around me.
I came to the point of knowing I was totally dead inside. Oh, I was alive, I could function, but I knew that I was dead. No words to describe it to you, it was just a total deadness.
The search went on, the deadness of death inside grew to the point that I also knew somehow that I was going to hell.
Hell was real, not a belief, not some mental thing, but so much deeper, and I began to realize that hell was in fact, a very real and nasty place, and I was headed there, but I did not know why at all. This is not mental knowledge, this is far, far deeper, a conviction of the SPIRIT.
I was not some criminal. I had not murdered, raped or hurt anyone. I had never been arrested, never even had a speeding ticket. So why would I be going there, going down and not up? This was the trap most of humanity falls into – if they are basically “good” God will approve of them. NOT SO.
You see, this is what most of us think. If we are good, we will be ACCEPTED by the Lord. Not so, not so at all. It had nothing to do with it.
I did remember that the HOLY SPIRIT was sent to convict one of judgment. Or that judgment was unto eternal ruin, eternal loss. Now it was real, more real than our physical life here. So real, so unshakable. I lived with that for many a month.
Because most people never bother to search the matter out as the Bible commands, they have no idea where they are actually going when they die. They are the blind leading the blind, and they all fall into the ditch of ruin.
13 But he answered and said, Every plant, which my heavenly Father hath not planted, shall be rooted up.
14 Let them alone: they be blind leaders of the blind. And if the blind lead the blind, both shall fall into the ditch.
Because I had searched it out, I KNEW I WAS HEADED FOR A VERY REAL HELL and there was nothing I could do about it.
It was during this horrific inner suffering time that I began in earnest to call upon the name of Jesus Christ and asked Him into my heart millions of times, but nothing happened. The winds of the Spirit were silent. They just blew in my face, mocking me.
There was no salvation. There was nothing but eternal hell. I was lost, dead to the world, dead to God, dead to everything. Dead is dead, I thought. No hope here, and yet I somehow knew I could NOT turn back, could not quit, I had to continue. So, I did.
The Good Book says that the Lord will take you by a way you know not, a WAY no one in Hollywood could even dream up!! In fact, the early Christians were known as the “people of the way”!!
During this time of inner horror and conflict, I began to realize I was in some sort of SPIRITUAL WARFARE, but I was now not a part of it, I was a bystander, watching two forces fight in out.
This war was between Jesus Christ and Satan, who owned me because I was born into a fallen race and Satan owns us in a very real and legal sense of the word.
It was like Canada and Mexico were in a gigantic war and that I was in America, watching the missiles flying overhead. It is very hard to describe.
I later found out that this was Jesus Christ fighting over my soul and spirit with Satan, my legal owner. Christ was in fact binding the “strong man” that inner man who sits within what the Bible calls our inner hidden man of the heart. It is here that the affairs of life and run.
This is our individual Holy Place, occupied by a little apostate antichrist spirit. It is here that the real issues of life are found.
It reminds me of the movie “Men In Black” where there was a little alien inside the mind of a Robot running it. We are like that, we have an inner little man running us, which is why it so hard to break a habit without a major fight. The inner man likes your habit and does not want to give it up. He sits upon a throne deep within.
The Israelites were told to build a temple as they wandered in the wilderness, much like man, who wanders in the wilderness of his lost and fallen state with no direction home. He is adrift in an ocean of conflicting concepts, forever searching, forever asking for what he knows not.
So, there I was, dead and pleading for help and answers, but nothing came.