The Matrix Lockdown

You Are In A Prison

A New Series From My Book


As usual, I challenge anyone and everyone to prove all of this wrong. Your eternal destiny is at stake here.

Early Questions, No AnswersWhat Is Truth?

You must first find the real questions to ask before you will get the real answers! Many people have asked about my personal life, so I thought it would help them if I wrote about it.

When I was very young, about six or so, my parents, who were basically agnostics, allowed me to attend a small church in the village down in the valley from where I lived on a farm on the mountain.  Vermont was a beautiful state, and still is, largely unspoiled by what is termed “progress”.

One day when I was walking home from that small church, I was spoken to, and the voice impressed upon me that the book in my hands was the most valuable book in the entire world, and that it contained the truth of all that there was.

I WILL NEVER FORGET THAT DAY, or the exact location on that mountain road where I was when that voice spoke to me concerning that “book” I had in my hand called the Bible – that which I now call the “GOOD BOOK”.

I also knew and had a distinct memory of being sent here. I remember (and don’t ask me how, because I have no clue).

Where I came from, I now know. Why I was sent, I also now know.  We have all been “sent” here. As to who or what sends us is found in the pages of the GOOD BOOK. We are all sent, and we are here for a purpose.

Like most people who grew up in the forties, fifties and sixties, I soon put the Good Book on the shelf for it to collect dust, and I went out into the world to seek my fortune.

I grew up in Vermont and began flying aircraft when I was 16 years of age. I quickly progressed to obtain my private, commercial, instructor, multi-engine, Airline Transport and seaplane ratings. By the time I was 20, I was running a fixed base aviation company in Burlington, Vermont.

I flew all sorts of aircraft and charter trips, building time and experience. Soon I moved into corporate flying and stayed in corporate flying for the rest of my flying career, which was over 25 years in length.

I flew as captain in the most sophisticated jets that money could buy. It was an exciting life and led me to explore many areas of the US, Canada, and Mexico that I would have never seen otherwise.

During my flying career, I ran into many and assorted characters of interest that only exist in the big business world, the very rich and my fellow pilots. When you are aloft, and especially at night, you begin to think about things, and see things few will ever see or even know about.

It was during my flying career that I witnessed strange objects in the skies, that which we call UFO’s. Now the world sightings are so numerous and global that they are seen every day. That’s another story.

It was during the time of my flying career that I was called INTO and then OUT OF what we commonly call Christianity or the “Church” of today many years ago.

The Creator put the real hard call upon me in the seventies. I had read a book entitled “The Late Great Planet Earth” by Hal Lindsey and I found it very interesting because I was always interested in what the future might bring. This was my introduction into what we call “Christianity”.

I later found out most of it, but not all of it, was a hoax, but at the time, it sounded plausible. It was soon after while I was watching a television program put on by Rex Humbard, who was at that time one of the larger Christian TV Evangelists. He had a program about Bible prophecy, and it at the end of it, he invited anyone who wanted to, should call upon the name of the Lord and invite Jesus into their heart to do so.

So, I knelt in front of the TV set and did exactly that, as Rex led us in prayer. Rex assured everyone that had done that in truth and in sincerity that their names were written in the LAMB’S BOOK OF LIFE, and that they were in fact HEAVEN BOUND.

He told us we were now the Lord’s and that we should now find a Bible believing church nearby, much like Billy Graham did. I accepted as truth what was being told to me and did not give it much thought.

I now know that I underwent what is called a CONVERSION in Christian theology, and that these evangelists, preachers and teachers of Christendom are CONVERSIONARY EXPERTS, and in fact, they use principles of psychological mind control and mass manipulation techniques to get people to make a decision “for Christ”.

I found out later that it was what Jesus Christ called BROAD WAY THEOLOGY, and not STRAIT GATE THEOLOGY. That is another story. My conversion led to changes in my life, as it does for multitudes of people, but I found out soon enough that there was much more to this mystery than met the eye.

My life began to change, and I began to seek out other like-minded Christians as I studied the Word of the Lord and began to grow in knowledge and in faith. The world slowly lost its grip upon me as I began a long, long journey through the night.

Doubt began to come upon me however, as to my true state before the Lord as to my being secure, safe and what the Church called, “BORN AGAIN”.

I would voice these doubts and be assured by the preacher boys that it was just an unbelief attack, and that we are saved BY GRACE THROUGH FAITH, and that as long as I had been sincere, and had the evidences of REGENERATION or REBIRTH, I was in fact SAFE.

I should cast off these doubts and simply BELIEVE and HAVE FAITH IN THE WORDS OF THE SCRIPTURE, which I had claimed as the basis of my salvation.

However, if one would really read the Scriptures for what they REALLY SAY, one would find out how distorted modern Christian theology has become.

What I was being told was, as I found out later, POSITIVE THINKING, a type of self – hypnosis, but deep within I knew something was not right as I was always searching, always looking, always questioning everything and nothing seem to fit.

Like most people, I guess, we search out and latch onto something that appears to be truthful to us, so we embrace it, and it makes us feel comfortable and “secure”. Once we have decided it is “true for us”, we embrace it and it becomes “our truth”.

In other words, we like being in our own self-established comfort zone, and we do not like that zone to be challenged. I later found out that our so-called comfort zone is usually a very unsafe and dangerous place to be.

I began to question the “Good Book” and wanted to search out the entire matter for myself. This was the beginning of an adventure into the most “uncomfortable zone” imaginable. But it was likewise one of the greatest adventures one could ever take and the reward beyond all other things!!

The Scriptures, I was told by the preacher boys, that is, the preachers, teachers and evangelists, said that ANYONE WHO SINCERELY BELIEVED IN JESUS CHRIST WAS SAVED, I was therefore SAVED. I was further told that it was NON-EXPERIENTIAL, and that it was all done by a simple act of faith and belief.

In other words, I was to believe the Bible verses that they pointed out and not question anything whatsoever. They all said I simply lacked faith, lacked true belief. However, I was not at all sure of what I was supposed to be saved FROM. And why did I need to be saved at all? Saved from WHAT? What was this Hell? Was it really real, or just some sort of “fear mongering” to keep people in line, sort of like the IRS does around tax time?

This gets back into the foundation of humanity and a possible “glitch” that brought us into another timeline, a timeline that brought us into the prison we appear to be in. That is, are we living in what is supposed to a “normal” existence, with all of its trials and tribulations, or is this existence an “anomaly”, and abnormal? That really is the biggest question anyone can ask.

Perhaps, I thought, this might be a “school” of some sort, like kindergarten 101, a test to see who would or would not figure this thing we call “life” out. A dangerous school at that if one flunked out.

You have to understand that Christianity as it is known today is actually no different than any other religious concept out there insofar as the BELIEF and HAVE FAITH concept. All the religions ask you to “believe in them”, that is, believe in their rituals, tenants, teachings, doctrines or whatever. And they all tell you to embrace it without question.

Islam has Mohamed as its central figure, and so it goes.  I soon learned it was not so much the figurehead, but much rather the message brought that had to be thoroughly examined and tested before one could truly embrace the figurehead. Further, most founders of the religions are now buried and turned into dust. Only one was not, or at least that was the claim. Could it be true?

But I was not even sure of anything at this point, even though I knew that someone, or something, had sent me here for something I knew not. By this time I was in my late thirties.

I did not know if there was a heaven or a hell. I knew about them, because almost everyone has heard about them, but few people actually believe in them, as they are some nebulous place “out there” if they existed at all.

But I did remember the voice that told me when I a child, that the Good Book was a very important Book, a Book of truth even if it looked like foolish old wives’ tales and mythology or some stupid ancient blood thirsty religion.

Somehow, I knew that humanity was missing the point of it all, but what was the point they were missing?” And could I find it, even if almost all others had failed? I decided not only I could, but I would, come hell or high water!

As I began to read again from the Good Book once again, I had never seen this bit of Scripture:

Psalm 145:17-20

The LORD is righteous in all his ways, and holy in all his works. [18] The LORD is nigh unto all them that call upon him, to all that call upon him
in truth. [19] He will fulfil the desire of them that fear him: he also will hear their cry, and will save them. [20] The LORD preserveth all them that love him: but all the wicked will he destroy.

CALLING UPON THE LORD IN TRUTH? WHAT DID THAT MEAN? That means one can all upon the Lord, but not necessarily IN TRUTH. WOW!!  



  1. Wow Thanks for telling it like it is!!… we just seem to want to give room to people who profess Christ .. having a knowledge of him but denying the real power… you’ve just laid it out in an excellent..easy to understand way … tons of professing believers will end up in hell ..and it’s tough to get them to see their in danger… thanks for following our Lord In all he’s called you to do…I can hear him say well done My good and faithful servant!!


  2. Two things released me from the net of the broad way theologies when I first read the “Dark/Light”:

    1. The realization that I can’t go wrong OBEYING the word of God. Jesus said, “enter ye in;” so then, I can’t go wrong DOING it. Otherwise, the words in the Bible simply don’t matter. I had to fight through the “obeying = works” lie of the churches I had attended.

    2. The other thing that released me was this teaching in the blog post above about Ps 145:18 and the “in truth” part. I had fallen for the “just confess” Romans verse(s) deception for three years. No “here a little, there a little” at all.

    But when the “Dark/Light” pointed out Ps 145:18 and those two (seemingly) little words I was RELEASED from so many false teachers and preachers who had taught that nonsense. I zoomed through that strait gate like a slingshot (after a LOT of initial hesitancy). This…was…the…truth. Praise God.

    Thank you again Stewart and Patti for posting this “Finding Home” series. God bless!

    P.S. I still smile whenever I read Ps 145:18 and see those “two little words.” It still affects me.

    The LORD is nigh unto all them that call upon him, to all that call upon him in truth. (Ps 145:18)

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  3. Although I’ve read this book before, I’m glad my memory evades me at these times. This is a real cliffhanger!

    Am truly enjoying the reread. 💗 Thank you Scubie.

    God bless you.

    Wherefore comfort yourselves together, and edify one another, even as also ye do. (1Thess 5:11)


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