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October 23, 2013


It seems from comments and my own experiences of late that many Christians are feeling a great wave of sadness and grief for no special reason – it appears to be a combination of a sort of depression, a sort of missing real and true fellowship, and a wave of disappointment that the world will not listen anymore to the truth of things. It involves a deep missing of people you dearly love when they are gone, even if only for a short time. It is not easily explained. It seems to be deeper and much more profound than usual.

I went into this wave a few weeks back, and it is not like me to be so depressed like this, for normally I am just the opposite – and then I began to hear from others who are now feeling this same odd unexplainable sense of sadness and for no special reason – and now I suspect the reason is that somehow we all know this is almost over – we are all sensing something coming, unseen, but known deep in the spirit – and the hugs and the kisses of our loved ones, our Christian brothers and sisters, wives and husbands will be no more – and that the Holy Spirit is doing His final weaning process – getting us ready for what is soon to come upon us – and that means that it must be close at hand.

Perhaps we need to reread the below blog one more time – THE GOD FACTOR. Have you ever had to leave someone you loved? Someone so dear to you that it broke your heart to say goodbye, and knowing it was the last time you would ever see them? Most of us have, and we can identify.

It reminds me of a Willie Nelson hit called “Blue Eyes crying In The Rain” a love story gone bad. Is that what this is really all about? Is the Holy Spirit refining us, getting rid of all of those “earthly” things that we are hanging on to but don’t want to admit it, but He knows it? Or is it because we all know that soon all of us will be saying goodbye and also know that we may never see some of our loved ones ever again as the great separation takes place?

Something is in the wind, and I would love to hear everyone’s comments concerning this – are you feeling this and what is your take on it? Please comment, people to need to hear from you from your heart one way or the other.

Maybe this song says it all:



  1. M.H. MacDonald permalink
    October 29, 2013 6:15 pm

    Absolutely what I’ve been experiencing. I’ve the sense that it’s coming from the Father, that it’s His sadness at the willingness of so many millions of Americans to turn away from God who has so blessed them and have turned to darkness and that which is evil and degrading. He mourns what He must do, but He calls us to stand with Him, not in glee that the wicked will be punished, but sharing in His lament that it has come to this. He gives us the sight of what’s to come in the faces and utter madness of those who were so sure no such fate would befall them. The waste, they will know they have wasted their lives in seeking pleasure and that which has no life in it. America, America, God did indeed shed His grace on thee. And thou hast put it out with the garbage.


  2. Grizzly mama permalink
    October 28, 2013 9:40 pm

    It is almost comforting to find other depressed people who are willing to admit it. Sometimes I get more tired from faking the smile than I do anything else. As I watch us spiral down the tubes with no one taking responsibility and a new crisis every day in our government system; well it’s just truely NOT something I can be happy about. A total train wreck and I want to stop the train and get OFF! There is a time and season for everything though and that depressed feeling means I have to get into God’s Good News and tune out the bad news of these times and remember who I depend on for my truth and strength. Remembering that my smile can be REAL!


  3. Stephen Hiller permalink
    October 28, 2013 8:04 pm

    I have felt this and along with it the feeling that there is nothing left to do, just accept it. I still pray and I know God hears me. Yogi Berra said, “it ain’t over until it’s over” I can’t help but feel “it’s all over but the shouting”.


  4. straightstreet permalink
    October 28, 2013 10:26 am

    I posted before I read any of the replies here. Look at the seperation of wheat from the tares! It is obvious! It brings such a sadness to us all 😦


  5. straightstreet permalink
    October 28, 2013 10:17 am

    I felt a wave of sadness with the first election and massive adoration of O by the masses. It made me sick and weep for our Saviour who is The One that is so deserving of ALL Praise and Worship forever and ever AMEN. I know who O is. I’ve known who he is since before his election because of a dream my husband had back in the early 2000’s. (2001-2002?) Overwhelming sadness again for me upon his reelection as I knew it was the end of this once great nation. A sealing of the pronounced judgement. But I absolutely wept from the depths of my being when the stenographer stood up 2 weeks ago with THUS SAITH THE LORD…the church (for the most part) did NOT get it and even made fun of her calling her names such as crazy or the shut down was just too much for her or what not and this nations leadership did NOT get it at all. She was used by our Father, an Almighty Loving Father, and no one listened or even HAS the spiritual ears to listen! We are done! We are all undone! Woe unto the US! Woe unto the “church system”! Woe unto religion! You have NO relationship with His Son! You do not know Him and He does not know you! Judgement comes first to His children then to the nations…sad indeed 😦


  6. Brent permalink
    October 25, 2013 8:28 am

    Dido. I thought I was just becoming depressed which is not like me at least feeling this way so long and not knowing what was the cause. What a awesome time to be .


  7. October 25, 2013 6:14 am

    Can we understand the pain experienced by our Lord in Gethsemane? The bitter chalice of separation and loneliness. Surely, only those who love can understand it, who loves with the Love of God.


  8. Mariel permalink
    October 24, 2013 10:23 pm

    Every day I think of someone I knew and pray for their salvation…probably nine or ten people a day. And I always have tears for them when I pray, and tears that they are no longer in my life, so I weep many times right in the middle of doing worldly things such as driving the car or cleaning the house. I weep tears of joy for those who have gone before me whom I believe are in Heaven with the Lord. I often tell Him that the greatest thing He ever did for me in my worldly life was to send me a husband who was already Spirit Filled and then became Born Again. This great gift I should always remember, but nevertheless I
    still weep many times a day for others…and of course I weep that I am a widow for nearly
    five years…but then today I thought, how great that Irv is with God and not here in the world today.
    Most of the rest of Irv’s family and mine are not saved, so there are constant prayers for them, too, including my two grandsons.
    I have lost many “things” lately, most notably the church I was attending. I knew the church was not preaching the whole gospel and not watching for the Lord’s return, but it was a group that was so much better than the average of what one sees today. Then, the old bugaboo returned: they remodeled the office at the church in a toxic way, even though I had begged them not to, for their sakes as well as mine; and then they cleaned the rug in the church and fellowship hall with toxic chemicals, even though they could have used steam cleaning. The secretary told me it was not cost effective to do it the right way, and indeed a vestry person told me that the church is hard up now, because its older members, who gave large donations, had mostly all died. It was sad to give up the people in the church, but I just mentally put it down on the long list of other losses, the list of separations from the world. I will no doubt “see around” some of the church members.

    Having a rare genetic illness which makes me especially sensitive to toxicities of the world has caused me to lose many relationships and my teaching job and money and houses.
    So this isn’t new. What is new to me is that I am realizing these things had to go. And the pace of things “going” all around us is increasing exponentially–for I see things in our world leaving us which are way beyond my own private losses. We all see the same things when we look at our world today.

    I am convinced that much of my family will be saved, in the tribulation if not now, so the weeping over their coming tribulation is tempered by hope. We should remember just how much Jesus did for all of them already, and how much He will yet do. Some may not agree with that, but this is my faith, that Jesus Saves.


  9. Kathy permalink
    October 24, 2013 8:54 pm

    I confess when I read this post it brought tears of recognition to my eyes. I have been so sad lately but can’t quite put my finger on why. In thinking about it, I think there are several levels to my feelings.

    I am very grateful that my entire family knows and loves the Lord, (most active in lay ministry) but very few of them have much interest in end times prophecy. How can they not with the things unfolding every day? Because I *am* watching the signs, I become very frustrated that we’re still here!

    I am also sad as I see our beloved country falling apart. The things that are happening are beyond belief and we can do absolutely nothing about it. It does help to believe it’s all part of God’s end time plan but it can also be frustrating.

    But we should be encouraged! At any second we could be standing face to face with our Savior and be with our loved ones who have gone ahead of us. It won’t be long!!


  10. October 24, 2013 6:42 pm

    Be Encouraged! Yes, the empire and life we’ve always known is over soon. Comet ISON and the falling debris from her will do terrible damage. What I thought would begin in mid 2014 is coming sooner. The weeping of St. John over no one to open the seals is felt here. The last battle of Satan and his minions against God’s beloved angels is finished and he is cast down to Earth. His time is short. We feel sad at the destruction he brings. The Time of Sorrows is come, but we are encouraged knowing we will soon leave this prison planet for a parallel universe where we shall be raised as God’s Children and become Like Him! The pains of this world corrupted by Satan will be behind us and a newer better life will begin. This is not the terrible end. This is the opening of the wonderful beginning.

    While you still can get it go to and then to my link there for The Way Home. The book is a free download and there’s much more to read there, also free.


  11. October 24, 2013 5:36 pm

    Mr. Best I do understand and agree with your post… I read your post and share them on social network… I get very few responses and feel that what is happening the seriousness isn’t apparent with a good share of those few responses… Sometimes there is no response but it could be that the posts are read but just not responded too… You are the only Person that I know of that is truly born of the Lord and I find your work unique…. I want to share something with you… When I listen to your recordings on my computer with Real Player there is a harmonic skin display that shows every time on your voice tone that others that speak don’t ever show… I thought that is most fascinating and believe that what is revealed is what is hidden within you that is directly from the Lord showing his sealing in you not recognized by plain observation…..


  12. susan permalink
    October 24, 2013 3:26 pm

    I too have felt the sadness and at first thought it to be depression but now I believe that it is our Father God’s sadness and grief of His judgement to come upon His disobedient children. We’re all connected to Him spiritually, so why wouldn’t we experience His sadness as well? He is separating the wheat from the – the sheep from the goats. His sadness as


  13. Judy permalink
    October 24, 2013 11:42 am

    Stewart….I think those of us that have a hard time “living” anymore can relate to your comments. I’ve been “sad” for a very long time now…..I only wish it was recent… attendance has been “nil” for me for years… appears to me anyways that they are just
    dead….people can’t see, don’t want to see and yes, I’m so concerned about my family… grieves me terrible….but I know that the Lord knows what He’s doing Stewart, that’s my only solice in this mess…..and most days I wish this were over with…..however, eternity is forever so I can wait….and if we “wait” because we love our families its ok…..those who “endure” till the end will receive rewards (but I don’t think we much care, we’d rather our loved ones be saved)… usual, thank you for the post…..again you’ve “hit the nail on the head so to speak”…..many blessings, jr


  14. Dean permalink
    October 24, 2013 11:41 am

    There is a feeling of heaviness and burdensome pressure from a source that to me is inexplicable. At times, it is like being crushed. It may be the same source as the falsehood, delusion and worldly wickedness that we must each overcome. This force seems to be increasing and bringing with it a spiritual blindness for the truth en mass. Let’s hope for a revival in America from the Lord. We have the victory in Christ Jesus!

    “God’s strength is made perfect in my weakness”.


  15. Michael permalink
    October 24, 2013 7:42 am

    In part it would appear as if the God Factor is working His pleasure and will to completeness in our lives at this point in time.

    “And every one that hath forsaken houses, or brethren, or sisters, or father, or mother, or wife, or children, or lands, for my name’s sake, shall receive an hundredfold, and shall inherit everlasting life.”


  16. Patrick Murphy permalink
    October 24, 2013 1:54 am

    Stewart, I believe we are feeling the very sadness The Waldenses, Wycliffe, Luther, Tyndale, Zwingli, and so many others who became martyred for their witnessing to bring reformation, the light of truth in the word to the world, including Jesus and all his apostles. You think you are leading a normal life, and then god shakes you, shows you through discernment the truth, exposes the falsehoods pervading and taking hold in the world, that many of us, trained and indoctrinated all our lives to see as THE reality, not the copycat reality created by the dark one.
    So many of us are shown the narrow path that leads to the true light of life through the holy spirit, yet few are able to follow, let alone lead genuine reformations, so perhaps the sadness is from sensing the spiritual darkness encroaching and the great loss of so many souls who will never feel agape love, the feeling being propagandized that they [evil] are winning, have won, Christ and the bible are all but dead in the news, when in truth there is a great stirring in the hearts of people worldwide going on right now. I believe God is calling to many souls, and if sadness leads to realization of the truth, as it seems it almost would have to, all I can say is be strong, in the lord.
    I tell my family that and myself every single day, god is working miracles all over, they are not hidden for those which have eyes to see, and I am truly made happy each day looking for and sharing how god takes care of and prepares each of us to do his timely bidding. I am sad looking around at all the bad in the world, and yes Stewart I can feel the sadness-oppression, as they keep pushing it on us, Satan never sleeps, is never idle, most diligent and yet upon waking each morning, I thank god for the new day of life and get renewed in the love of god for me and through him, l find renewed love for all people, living creatures, and faith that we have already won our war, it is up to us to keep leading our brethren closer to the truth as long as we have life within us.


  17. Scott Harrison permalink
    October 23, 2013 11:53 pm

    Hi Stewart,
    These last days are challenging to say the least. The attacks are horrific. I’ve been kicked out of many churches for mentioning the narrow way. I gave up on any type of church fellowship years ago. (try to find a church out there that preaches the truth). I once was engaged years ago. As soon as I showed my fiancee “The False Prophets” tape she literally ran out of my house without a word not to be seen again. This was a good thing. The narrow way is hard enough without being distracted by a pseudo Christian. I was at one time a successful professional. My hospital confiscated my pension plan and I probably will get fired for having a Bible in my office. I probably will end up living in a trailer somewhere. This is a good thing because I can spend more time searching for The Lord. The physical attacks are many. Most days I walk around like a zombie wondering when this will be over. I don’t have the patience of our Lord and It is hard some days not to get mad at God for letting this go on for so long. Depressed? Probably. Frustrated? Absolutely. Thanks Steward.


  18. Mike permalink
    October 23, 2013 11:40 pm

    Stewart, thanks for sharing. It’s interesting to see just how many responses there have been to one of your shortest blogs ever. My belief is that what you wrote struck a nerve in many believers…me included. What we’re most likely witnessing here is a preparation for things to come. According to scripture, most believers who are not prepared are going to experience major oppression. I believe we’re now all getting a taste of what that feels like. Oppression is starting to be felt all around us. This spiritual oppression will get much worse as time goes on. However, we’re not to stay focused on the oppression, but to remain steadfast in our faith and keep our eyes firmly fixed on our Lord, just as Peter did when he walked on the water toward Jesus during the storm. Once we take our eyes off of Him we’ll begin to sink. Those who are true to Him will shine with Him in the last days, just as Daniel said that the wheat would shine forth (the wheat being the saints of God). The saints will be glorified with Him and the believers will admire His coming (2Thes 2:10). The tares will be bundled and burned but the wheat will be gathered into His garner (Lk 3:17). Most who are blind will remain blind, and the Lord says to LET THEM ALONE (Mt 15:14).

    At this time, I believe the Lord is purging and purifying His people. His people will experience the Book of Lamentations in its entirety. Most believers are going to find themselves under oppression, but the saints will be given power from on High.

    “A prudent man foreseeth the evil, and hideth himself: but the simple pass on, and are punished.” Pro 22:3

    Are we the prudent and seeking to hide ourselves in Christ Jesus? If not, the Lord says we’ll be punished. It’s the goats who are punished (Zech 10:3).

    There will be mourning and weeping, and the saints will prophesy prior to His return. If we pray and we’re found to be worthy, we’ll escape all those things that shall come to pass. If being so-called ‘raptured’ was automatic to every believer, then why does the Lord tell us to pray always to be counted worthy to escape?

    The false prophets are everywhere telling their flock lies upon lies and spewing forth fables they learned from their Bibles Colleges and Seminaries. These colleges and cemeteries are the ‘teachers’ spoken of in 2Tim 4:3. The bottom line is this…we’ve ALL been deceived by the MANY false teachers and false prophets and we’ve all fallen prey to many of their doctrines of devils and damnable heresies. The Lord said that in this time it is the SHEPHERDS who have led His people astray (Jer 50:6; Isa 9:16; Jer 12:10; Jer 23:1; Isa 56:11; Zech 11:3). Unless we first humble ourselves and realize this basic truth, then we’ll never be able to fully comprehend the enormity of deception that exists in the church today, nor will we ever ultimately rightly divide the word of truth. Question EVERYTHING! And study to shew yourselves approved unto God (not unto your pastor or your fellow brethren). Be not deceived. Study and pray always, being led by the Holy Ghost and not by our vain imaginations.


  19. WaterColorMe permalink
    October 23, 2013 11:22 pm

    It’s not just me! Thank you for the confirmations. I’m a very even tempered, smiling, empathetic person, and am finding myself waxing nostalgic, teary-eyed, reminiscing about my loved ones who once heard God’s voice but have been swept up by the worldly siren calls. I ask often for the Holy Spirit to comfort me. Many times I’m told to continue to wait on the Lord, keep my relationship strong with God and be courageous–it is their choice and they are actively choosing the matrix, I am actively choosing to draw closer to Him. He is all I have and the Hedge protecting me.


  20. Frank permalink
    October 23, 2013 11:07 pm

    I find it very difficult to have joy at this time. Although I know that I am saved and unimaginable joy a waits us soon, the day to day witnessing of the world falling farther and farther away from God is depressing. I feel like I just don’t know what to say to people anymore. I have nothing but bad news for those who reject The Lord. The whole churchianty thing has made it very hard for the true followers of Christ to be heard.I trust in God’s perfect plan, he will vindicate his people. Thanks to Stewart and all the other brothers and sisters who have shared.It is nice to have one’s feelings confirmed by others .


  21. Stuart S. permalink
    October 23, 2013 10:32 pm

    Yes, feeling similar for sure and at greater depths these past few weeks. Cycles of being OK, energetic and playful to flat out sadness. The sadness shrouds me when I think of my loved ones, it is like we do not have much more time together and I find myself wishing I had had more time with all of them in past days. The feeling is like the is no more time, the fat lady sang and now the curtain is falling. I strive to hear from the Spirit as to what to do about anything important but nothing sure comes to me, it is though the Spirit is not there. It is almost like the message is to sit tight, be still and do nothing because anything I do in this flesh is now futile, only The Lord can pull off anything remotely resembling a miracle these days. We appreciate your heart Stewart.


  22. October 23, 2013 10:12 pm

    Well, Stewart, I am sad but saddened that I have let the strongholds of the enemy cause grudges in my relationships. I am also sad that I do not speak more for the truth. I am guilty for still being in a struggle of “my will” and the Lord’s will. I am saddened by speaking to people who do not know what I am going through spiritually and think I have a screw loose. People really believe it is a joke or unimportant to worry about your soul. A person said it so plainly: “I see dead people, and they don’t even know it”. Its very sad that there isn’t any true fellowship anymore and people chase after things that perish!


  23. Pamela permalink
    October 23, 2013 10:08 pm

    Our Hope – the Bridegroom soon comes.
    From Song of Songs
    2:10 ‘My Beloved responded and said to me,
    “Rise up, my love, My beautiful one,
    and come away.
    11 ” For look, the winter is past,
    the rain is over, gone.
    :12 “The flowers have appeared in the earth;
    The time of singing has come,
    And the voice of the turtledove has been heard in our land.’


  24. October 23, 2013 8:53 pm

    Gracious me-I’m not alone in my feelings. You said it well and I have been this way for
    some time and no one will hear the truth -don’t want the truth! I am so weary with it all….more & more truth is coming out-the books of Daniel are opened & the evil is just exhausting! I have come to the conclusion that I must ready myself cause if I wait on my family I will get left behind! I so wanted all to be together-but instead a great pruning is taking shape and its lonely I might ad. But I keep looking up—cause my redeemer lives! And thank you for insight and keep it coming! The connection is welcome!


  25. Linda B permalink
    October 23, 2013 7:40 pm

    I am so weary, yet I thank God every day for every day that is still a “normal” day. I long for His coming, but I am sorrowful for what is to come. I pray for my family, friends, and acquaintances knowing that very evil, dark times are fast approaching. I am deeply saddened by those who think that this world is all that there is, or their material possessions mean something. I seem to be in a constant state of mourning.


  26. james permalink
    October 23, 2013 7:32 pm

    wow i have awakened for weeks AT 2.30 or 3.00 am sat in my living room praying in the spirit .DEEPLY TROUBLED, but no idea what it was about or for whom?
    just weak and disheartened by the worldly earthly tasks held little meaning
    my favourite pastimes lost seems that as the syrian conflict has subsided
    i feel stronger and things are again quiet in my spirit. god bless your ministry …


  27. Jerome permalink
    October 23, 2013 7:23 pm

    This reminds me of another song, about how hard it is saying goodbye to this life and everyone in it…but God lifting us up.


  28. Pamela permalink
    October 23, 2013 7:18 pm

    How good to express our common grief and sadness at this time. It seems to me it’s to do with being the final season…. fading of life…..leaves falling, before a long, hard, dark winter. Letting go of the hope to see a new grandchild desired by my youngest daughter who hasn’t started a family yet, at the same time knowing that what is to come upon the earth would turn that joy in to much distress. It’s the awfulness of seeing all the perfect works of our Creator Father marred, depraved, ruined and the song of creation has died. How much more must Father’s heart be grief stricken. A few years ago I saw in the night a scroll like roll of music for a pianola with the little holes cut out to make the notes sound, except the scroll I saw did have music notes on it. As it rolled across it came to the place where the notes stopped but the paper roll continued and within me I knew it meant that the life song would soon be finished. As the scripture says there is a time to grieve and a time to mourn, a time for every purpose under heaven. I thank and praise Him for all His goodness to all His people, that in His great love for us, He has brought us deliverance and redemption through His very own Son, and that life is eternal.


  29. Glenda permalink
    October 23, 2013 6:43 pm

    Thank you so much Stewart! For some time I’ve been thinking surely I am not the only one feeling this. It is almost a “melancholy” though at times in prayer the weeping is all consuming. It’s as if all relationships are being shown in their true light, lives are being sifted and the Holy Spirit is working overtime. Perhaps the Lord is using us to mourn, to weep for these lost souls as this World has grieved Father and this is the last call before the harvest.


  30. October 23, 2013 6:31 pm

    Yes, i too have been feeling this way for a few weeks now….i have done a lot of crying, some days not sure why. I know i am frustrated that what i share to my loved ones is not taken seriously or that when i try to witness to people of the Love of God and Jesus as our savior, is often followed by a snicker or chuckle stating they have heard it all before. They have heard he is coming back soon but it never happens and on and on. I share the signs of the times and how our world is changing ever so quickly and that is also a sign from our Lord to be awake and watch for his return! Yes, you have really hit the nail on the head and i wanted to share this many times but didnt really know how. Somehow, knowing that i am not alone in these feelings, makes it a bit easier. It is hard to see my grown children and relatives think i am a bit loony for trying to share Jesus. I pray we all get to go home soon, to our real home, Amen? I’ve always known i am just passing thru this life, only to go home!


  31. Victoria Kuphall permalink
    October 23, 2013 4:51 pm

    I have been feeling lost and sad for quite some time now. It worries me to think what will become of my family and loved ones when things start to happen. I have been trying to pray but the words don’t come out and I just sit there on my knees waiting for words. I have tried to tell loved ones about the way. No luck there. I am definitely not an earth dweller and I find myself wondering what is going on with people who just seem so engrossed with this life. I know hard times are coming and choices will have to be made. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. I am weary of this life and true joy is becoming less and less.


  32. sheri permalink
    October 23, 2013 4:33 pm

    I have been going through this inexplicable sadness, grief, and depression too, and I worry for my young son who is serving in the military….God bless us all, it was a good ride while it lasted.


  33. Ruthie permalink
    October 23, 2013 3:05 pm

    WOW.. I have been experiencing much of the same.. I find myself weeping for all the sleepers who refuse to wake up and smell the coffee.. It is amazing to me how many still believe Yahweh is going to save this nation.. and how they hate me for not agreeing with them.. but then Yeshua did say.. BLESSED ARE YOU WHEN ALL MEN REMOVE YOU FROM THERE COMPANY..and what an amazing thing to be joined to the Son of Man in the fellowship of His Sufferings.. I also have many family members who are not born from above and my three of my children are included in that number.. and so I will continue to pray for them and to plead for his mercy.. He saved me after living in deep darkness for many many years.. Finially I saw myself in all my filth and depravity and he saved me out of a horrible pit.. As long as I have time I will pray for my loved ones..

    And to sister Reginia, I lived many years on the streets of the cities in some very rough and dark places.. and Yeshua in his mercy kept me and saved me again and again.. IT IS OVERWHELMING AS I DESERVED IT THE LEAST, HOWEVER, I NEEDED HIM THE MOST..So be encouraged dear sister.. for HE IS ABLE TO SAVE TO THE UTTERMOST ALL THOSE WHO COME TO HIM THROUGH YESHUA. FOR HE EVER LIVETH TO MAKE INTERCESSION FOR THEM.. LOOK UP FOR OUR REDEMPTION DRAWETH NIGH
    Agape love conquers all


  34. John permalink
    October 23, 2013 2:58 pm

    Regenia, your story is not unique. I share a similar experience. After 19 years wife decided to leave, as she put it, “to concentrate on herself and career.” But it was soon learned there was another person. Everything we build was dismantled. Children are taking sides and I feel disoriented and lost. Of course I fall upon my faith and prayer but the days are long, lonely, and empty.



  35. October 23, 2013 2:20 pm

    I am truly blest with everything you write Stewart. Thank you much….I cannot say that I feel sad, or grief, or depression and missing out with fellowship etc. I try to make the most of the time understanding how powerful our prayers for others can be and do concentrate more on prayers for others. I somehow feel although we feel “on the brink” we still have a long way yet to go before our Gracious God “pulls out the rug from under the enemies feet” and am at last,after so long already waiting, at peace now at having to wait even more. All things will come in their time and time is so precious to me to help others into the Kingdom that I do not feel anything but victory no matter how many fall to left and right as I pray and will to stand with Jesus Christ CHIEF OF THE ARMIES OF DIVINE GLORY!!! He upholds us. He is Victor and He is Savior Who Saves even when all seems desperate.


  36. October 23, 2013 1:53 pm

    Wow! I would have wanted to write something about my deepest feelings and why i have felt depressed-like recently and it would have been something exactly like what you describe in this article. Like every true christians, I do know people that i cherish a lot and i know that the rapture is at hand. I can’t tell for sure when this will happen, but it can happen at any time from now. This is a very weird feeling ! When i was born again, five years ago back in September 2008, and later during the formation of my ministry, i have been attacked a lot by my own family and at work by many friends.

    As a sudden, my existence has changed abruptly and my life has never been the same since that time. During these «tribulations», my feeling was something a mix in between «this world will perish and it is a good thing» and «things are not moving fast enough to me». But recently, i can feel that nothing is working properly anymore….i have spoken with different people in different business fields and there is a common point between all of them : they all claim that since one year or so, all things became more and more difficult and that doesn’t stop to evolve to the worst ! All people without exception claim they can feel something dark is coming around.

    And i have made very astounding discoveries that perfectly fits the Bible prophecies, and these discoveries surprised myself as where we are situated now on God’s clock of humanity. And for sure we are 1 second to midnight !

    And then, my feelings recently changed. I felt like i cannot function in this world anymore because all honest companies are almost on bankrupcy since they are not part of the New World Order or the Elite «family», or if you really want a job, the only way is to accept a job that will go against your faith, which i prefer to refuse even if i lose everything.

    And you have all the people that you love, it can be a son (my oldest son has 19 years old, and even of he know Jesus, i know he is not Born Again) or a dauther, a father or a mother….good friends and close ones … and you know that Satan will do anything possible in order to deceive them. And as soon as it is possible, i cannot stop myself to speak of the Lord and of what is really happening, but at a certain point, you can feel that they become like «oh no ! not him again that will come to us and speak of the Lord one more time …» !

    And so, you become to them the one that always brings the bad news, even if in reality, what you are trying to do is to bring them THE GOOD NEWS, WHICH IS REPRESENTED BY CHRIST, the «NARROW» WAY, THE ONLY WAY BUT THE BEST WAY !

    But you can feel that they see you has the bad news bringer, and the one that «breaks the party». They tolerate you because they love you, but in fact, they are always agrssed by what you have to say, especially when comes the name of Jesus around.

    well, the majority of you know what i am talking about …

    So, i could never trust as much on what i am about to say to you Stewart : I cannot thanks Jesus as much as i would like, for me to have a brother like you. I have now to tell you something that is very true, and i don’t try to get any attention of it, it is too important to me as i am writing this text while my eyes are shedding tears.

    Yesterday, i felt very depressed, and it is not me, i am more the kind of person that always sight the blue sky out of the dark one, but yesterday was really hard to leave as you know…

    And it was about 10 o’clock in the morning my time which is eastern time, and i started to think about you Stewart, that i was missing to read your articles (take it as it is, because we love you and not because you are not working enough, because to the contrary, i wonder something if you take time for sleep!) and at that time, i heard (not like a voice, but in my heart) that you were to soon post another article, and that article would bring my a great hope and a great energy. So instantly, i felt better and i reply to the Lord : «Oh Lord, thank you for you to give us a brother such as Stewart, a ferving servant from whom i have so much learned»!

    So, i wanted you to know what’s happened Stewart. So my point here is and in light of the comments I’ve read so fay about this article on the «God’s factor», your article was a total inspiration by the Holy Spirit and PERFECTLY SYNCHRONIZED FOR A SPECIAL REASON, because it is obvious that it could not have been written at a better moment than the one it has been. The Lord knew who would read this in advance for sure and these must be a reason for this.

    This also show to every brothers and sisters in Christ HOW BIG IS YOUR HEARS STEWART, because you gave us a piece of it in this article, it was a real generous act from your part as you took a part of your precious time for us, your brother and sisters, in order to do what a real GENERAL/LEADER in the faith would do in any comparable situation. You did it ! You did it. And as a result, of lot of us will «roll up their sleeves» and continue where they were as servant of the Lord.

    We must never forget that we are at war here on Earth, and a war is never easy to experience ….

    Sorry if my writing can be difficult to read sometime because english is not my first language speaking. But i really had to express my feelings about the God Factor article, and also that one that really show us the HEART of our brother Stewart.

    God bless everyone following this blog, God bless Stewart and his family as well.



  37. regenia morgan permalink
    October 23, 2013 1:37 pm

    stewart. your message last nite was one that SHOOK me to the bones. for in 2009 my father died and my life turned so. and i was brought on a big life changing journey. i was led to sell our 117 acrea beautiful self perservation farm all set up with equimpment and animals and water and means to survive. down graded to a bed adn breakfast to live on the grid or off the grid and began prepareing. was shown many web sites and locations and prophetic taeahings and teachers. my non spiriutal husband made leaps and bounds i never thought would exist. he started learning, growing and helping prepare. to sell his farm and equipment and animals to down size was one i NEVER thought he would do. much less learn and be on board…then in december last year he started changing..he refused to pray or listen to any programs or even hear about what is coming. his son played a part in this also. told him to choose me or him. the sadness of what was coming and the feelings of what all of these 3 years had done to him, pulled him back so much further than i could of imagined.he became sad, depressed and unhappy. deeper than i could ever imagine. i saw it in him each day. and i did not believer it would get the best of him. but he said he wanted out and to get a new life and start living and find happiness. so he left me after 31 years of marriage and has taken all of our self protection with him, all of our tools and equipment, and has said we have to sell this house, he is DISMANTLING everything that we had accomplilshed in 3 years. he has on the other hand set himself and his son up well. taken all of my knowledge and preservation tips and set them up fine. said me and my 3 grandchildren that i had custody of would be out in the cold with no means to provide or take care of ourselfs. while he and his would be well provided for in ways that they could exist on another farm and i would be in the city and soon out on the street with no means of self preservation…yet he is preparing and knowing what is coming but from the earthly view. of man idea that it is man against man. no thought of our lord in his mind or his sons mind at all. this has devasted me and left me soooooooo vullnerable and destroyed. i had put my eggs in one basket and had based off of how to deal with these times with his help. the two of could and would accent each other to help others and ourselfs with the lords guidance and blessing. now i am the one out in the cold and in need of help. why he turned into who he is i will never be able to explain. i even told him did he know where me and mine would wind up because of his actions. and he said YES he most definatly did and siad i deserved it and that i brought it on myself. i have prayed more in the past 3 months than i have ever prayed in my life. sometimes 10 or more times a day. i am trying hard to lean upon the lord to trust and have faith. but it is hard. yes these times are doing so much to so many i see and know. some are suffering in emotional turmoil and stress and depression. lilfe changing events are happeining to so many. some are seeming to improve in what they think they need, all material and physical ways, not spiritual. all of those finding happiness now that i see are looking for earthly means to make them happy and are seeming to temperaialy find it. those left behind are the ones seeking spirituall help and trying to find happiness there. this is what i am seeing. a great division in emotions and wants. people are being stirred up. i… am trying hard to deal with my situation the lord gave me as a test or trial. i loved my mate, let no man divide what god himself has put together, for better or worse, in sickness and health till death do us part. i made that commitment. i made that vow and i meant it. i believed in what i said and what i did, especailly after 31 years….this time he gave me a mountian like elvis sings. so your comments on the last post realy really shook me when i read them it was like your writting just to me in some of the verses.


  38. October 23, 2013 1:21 pm

    As you, I have felt this emptiness too. I think mine is because this isn’t my home and I’m longing for my true home. When I was a 4 year old child a voice in my ear saved me from either being raped or killed or both; at 4 years old I recognized it was not my own thought. The voice was motherly and protective. I listened at how to hide and how long to hide and where to run too. When it was over I realized, that where ever the ONE who spoke into my ear LIVED, that was my home. I am now 45 or 46 I’ve lost count and really don’t care how old I am now. But, when life gets me down due to the human animal side of life events; I try hard to remember things like that to keep my spirit in control of this avatar of mine instead of the human animal controlling my emotions. It is not easy to do sometimes though. But thank God for God, because if it weren’t for God, it would just be those human animal qualities we would have to look forward too. Where ever or spirit comes from is our home and I think allot of us miss our true home. What happened to me at 4 is true, and if your ever feeling down and blue and questioning your existence or the existence of God. Please feel free to use my memory at 4 years old for your self. Because if it weren’t for that voice, I wouldn’t have been here at 45 or 46 years old to write you. I still at my age wonder what God is going to use me for? The only thing I have to offer God is my true love! I Suppose I could build something for him but I’m not as good of a Carpenter as Jesus. Just like every one else, I have to have faith enough to know, God knows what purpose he has for us on this earth. Maybe in the end my only purpose is going to be to love him? I’m okay with that!


  39. Kim from New York permalink
    October 23, 2013 1:13 pm

    You perfectly explained EXACTLY where I am! I spend much of my days and nights crying and begging God to open the hearts of people in my life….so many who sit in church with me and look absolutely nothing by the Bride but call themselves Christian!


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